Today I am working on letting go.
I’ve been working at my kitchen table today so I can chase away the house sparrows as they try to kick my little wren out of its birdhouse…my birdhouse. I am keeping diligent watch – looking up from my work – not getting much done – but holding on tightly to the wren’s right to live in our yard.
You see…house sparrows are bad birds. They are invasive, aggressive and kill native birds. Often building their nests on top of the corpses of the birds they have eliminated – not good energy for my yard. I wish we didn’t have any house sparrows.
So, I have a dilemma. Relax and let nature take its course or fight the house sparrows. Which is the right path for one, such as myself, who tries to let life lead her – relax – and just go with the flow. Hmmm…
I’ve pondered doing a meditation to the spirit of the house sparrow and asking it to leave – but something about that isn’t really my bag – a bit too out there. I’ve thought about giving lots of love to the wren and empowering him to fight back. I’ve thought about letting it just play out, and if the house sparrows succeed in kicking the wren out, just removing the birdhouse this year.
I think that is probably what I will end up doing – just letting go of trying to prevent the house sparrow from chasing away the wren. Yet, making sure I do not provide a habitat for the invasive house sparrow beyond what is natural. At this moment, that seems the flowiest of my options.
Why is it so hard then? I am totally rooting for that little wren! I want him to chase those nasty house sparrows away! Why is it so hard to let go of my own wishes in this situation?
I’m pretty sure it is because I am human. We are tenacious – we hold on – it is what we have done for a long time to survive. However, we are not in survival situations very often anymore.
Let go and flow sounds so good – but it can be so difficult.
Sometimes I need to ask for help. Sometimes I need to touch spirit in silent meditation in order to gain perspective on something that is really bugging me…or when I am fighting with all I have to hold on and control a situation.
Sometimes I can do it – sometimes I still struggle. Yet, I find peace in silence.
Today I attached a sparrow spooker to my birdhouse. The sparrows are gone – the wren is happily chirping and building its nest – I am happy. Yet, I know I still have work to do.
